FONKOL:

The HCA from another wing approached the RN from the next wing to say: a daughter is on the phone wanting to talk to you and she is on our line. The RN busy with her evening routine had to walk to the next wing to pick the call.

RN          : RN speaking, what can I do to help?
Daughter: Hi this is daughter, I have been ringing the phone for 20 minutes and no one is picking the phone.
RN          : I am sorry to hear that but I have the wireless phone in my pocket and the main phone on the desk but neither one rang. Anyway how can I help?
Daughter:  I want to know about the condition of my father.
RN          :  Your father is good during the shift. He has no episode of vomiting which he had in the morning. He has been seen by the doctor and is on antibiotic. And ....( before finishing the sentence )
Daughter: I was there in the morning and I know all about the vomiting. I just want to know if he was not vomiting again.
RN          : That is what I am saying, no episode of vomiting, he is able to take his antibiotics and I do not need to administer the Oxygen... he has eaten his dinner.
Daughter: So he is not vomiting at all ? And did he eat anything?
RN          : ( wondering if she was ever talking on the phone ) No vomiting and he has eaten his dinner.
Daughter: Did he eat his dinner?
RN          : ( wanting to curse under her breath ) He ate some of his dinner and he was not vomiting. He is breathing fine. I will ring if anything    
happens.
Daughter:  Well, I am just concern that he is not eating and that he is unwell. And I rang and no one is answering the phone. Will you ring me if           something happens?
RN          : sure we always do that. Thank you for calling and sorry that the phone on here did not ring at all. ( wanting to add - maybe the phone here should have this number and wishing nurses cannot listen and be mean just as well ... kumas kaau ka maam daghan pa kaau ko work ).

LEARNING IN TIME:

I first saw life in an extended family setting without my parents and started to wonder if my parents cared less. In time did I learn that my parents were never the question. People come to this mortal world in different circumstances and it was not for me to assess what my parents have learnt in their own times. Fact was regardless of my parents absence I was blessed with the opportunity to live in a safe place, ate the right food, got educated in a better school and lived till the time that I could make sense of the circumstances of my birth.

I grew up in a confusing environment of pressures pulling my sleeves here, there or somewhere. In time did I learned that regardless of the forces we need to choose what we want to be. Reality is despite the selfishness of people who will always try to manipulate others to their own advantage we ourselves have the responsibility to upgrade our own lives and take accountability of our own decisions. The best thing to happen to anyone is to learn to bounce back when touching the depths and to be able to touch down when floating up the sky.

I have lived with people who took me as a threat that should be eliminated and wondered if life was actually worth living. In time did I learn that life is sweet when you looked back at every blow and find yourself smiling at your reflection in the mirror. Success is not counting the bruises, the grazes, the fractured bones, broken heart yet for all the hurt and pain one can only recognize SUCCESS  with a gracious spirit.

I have been used, abused even cheated out of my trust and kindness of character and wondered if I should learn the easy game out of honesty and sacrifice? In time have I realized that after all the rising costs and values gained in every fight  it is not what I get but the DIGNITY that is associated in achieving everything I have. Through the years and bone-aching struggle I have come to this time and place. Never in my existence have I dream to be a hero but in my humble ways I strive to be of help.

To those that look up to me, the only lasting legacy I can leave is the footprints of my experience, unfortunately it can only be sealed in their hearts. It is easy to forget the effort, even ignore the heights and distances that such sweet sacrifices has taken anyone at some moment in our lifetime  but reality is no amount of monetary grant can propel us to our own security but our own reasonable logic and disciplined senses neither can we blame other people for our own weaknesses. In all modesty I have all the right to say that I never leave anyone bleeding to death nor leave anyone ignorant in this existence but it is not within me to tighten anyone's resolution.

I am far from good but if I am a loser my greatest shame and only regret is that despite the bounteous blessings God nurtured me with I have not done the least to thank heaven for my own life, experiences and learning  God be my judge.