Times when people try to bully another for reasons misunderstood. Human as we are we get affected to some point yet I believed the best idea to hang on is "to him much is given to him much is required". Personally when I am confronted with unpleasant circumstances I tell myself I need to thank the people concern as they remind me I am alive, feeling and thinking.
By default, ladies are to be decent in appearance, courteous in speech and respectful in actions. More, education has added several items for expectation like being smart with our decisions and being able to tame our emotions. Meaning ladies understand poise and have class and distinction. Having explored a foreign land has taught me deeper insights about survival enhancing my very own self esteem which surely challenges the weaklings and teases the untamed instinct of the ignorants. It can be boring to the spiritually dead with mental lapses as well.
The first time I was bullied by a huge, ugly and loud woman - I simply took my ground, said nothing but fixed sharp glances straight into her eyes. Keeping my ground was just to tell her that I am not at all scared by her size - silence to warn her of the many things I know and fixing the sharp stare to say I will see you again someday, somewhere for whatever reason and then we ended up in friendship. Another time was by an all knowing, noisy and restless woman who tried to impress everyone not knowing that I was the one auditing her deficiencies. By then I tried to teach her a lesson by dutifully doing her idea and let her eat it back by letting her do all the consequences of it. Too bad she was too immature to realize we have mastered almost every corner of our job when she was only experimenting with her whims and caprices.
One time my man friend told me that I was being very possessive and demanding. Before I went to sleep I thought about it and tried to reconcile the possibility of truth in it. I realized I was getting everything I wanted and feeling very comfortable with our relationship I wanted it to last. Wanting him with me all the time was some kind of dependence I had developed that losing him would cause much pain when we need to part ways. Somehow, I come to think if I want everyone to be happy, maybe it was best to just enjoy every moment of the relationship and just let go when its time to break apart. Just the thought of break up still hurts me but nothing on this world lasts and that is one reality in life I need to face. If I worry now - I will miss the possibility of happy times together as I am being suffocating. To me I believe it is wisdom and wisdom made me quiet, calm and tamed.
On the other hand is the child in every individual. The child that is blind, compulsive and obsessive. There is the child that is helpless and insecure and always scared and fighting. There is the child that is stubborn, selfish and deaf yet wanting for love, acceptance and recognition for their laziness, unreliability and stupidity. The child who is childish and refuses to learn. An entity that is hopeless and ridiculous to believe it is joy to be a burden.
With this thing in mind, I could only shrug my shoulder and smile. I have a choice and how lucky I am to be educated and tamed to learn to act professionally. I can not go down the drains and lose my dignity with a miserable bully. Friends do not be bullied nor be a bully and that is regardless of your stature, skin or accent !
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