It was the third day since he left and the kindly smile, the innocent grin and the lovely spirit still linger inside the walls which was his home for sometime. I walked the familiar hallway, sat in the office trying to pull out a chart to document the things done during the shift. I know the door is right beside me - there I used to always have something to think about. But it is empty now - nothing but all donated stuff - the things he used to have which the family wanted to give to whoever would make use of it.
I remember the first time I came to work. He was one man aged in years but childlike in spirit. For a while he started wandering and unconsciously opened unwelcoming doors. He tried to move around, doing what he must have done in his younger years. He picked up feeders and flannels left on the trolley thinking that it should be kept somewhere else. He could be seen wiping tables and walls - a sign that he could have been a neat and orderly man in better times. But times had changed - he was overcome by years.
He had an amazing life history. He had saved a life in a fire while risking and compromising his own. From then on - he had such endless bout of respiratory problem that put him in regular antibiotics of a higher generation. Nurses are normally challenged by odd behaviours. At times when things can get rough and bells started ringing here and there - a nurse can be brought at wits end but not when it comes to Gordon. He was disoriented. He cannot ring the bell for his needs except when he plays with it. He knows where his shavers are and has memories of what it is for. He knows where his shirts are and makes a fuss with them. He can be seen opening the cookie jar and stuffing his pockets but he was never a pain in the neck. His very cool behaviour brings a smile into our faces, he brings out something that made us want to be patient and doting. He reminds me of the song " He aint Heavy He's My Brother "
Maybe it was his least demanding nature that I want to make sure that I do not forget him. Weeks prior the day - we noticed that he was eating less and was more sleepy than usual. As a leader of the team, I was aware that the staff were giving him extra attention. When he was getting less cooperative with his medications, it was so easy for me to sit down with pudding, ice cream or his favorite drink and make sure he gets every pill due for him to take. When I go on night shift - he was one of those prioritized for monitoring lest he rolls or slide down the floor.
The last few days we decided to put a protective mattress down his bedside in case he falls. One night I saw him sitting on it wrapped with his blanket. He was smiling like a child as if he was into some kind of funny and enjoyable play. The last day I saw him up the lounge - he was sleeping on the lazy boy. I took his temperature thinking he might have an impending flu but it was alright. Something in him seem to say that he was tired but I can see the fondness of most of the staff on him that I was quite sure no one was ready to part with him and I was happy for the attention and cares that he was getting.
That Sunday was my day off from work. When I came back in the afternoon of Monday - it was unbelievable for me to hear that he was going. To be told that he is sick is alright but not quite the fact that he was dying. I went to see him inside his room - he was all down and very ill and his family were there. Deep in my thoughts I know that he deserved the best care that I can give. I took the best pajama that I can get from his drawer and decided that I should give him a wash. The moment I wet the flannel my chest got so tight - I cant stand it and had to go back to the station.
I was angry, I was sad. I can not help it I had to cry. My fellow nurse told me - I need to be strong. I had to compose myself again as there are other patients to attend to but I was crying like a small child. I opened the medicine trolley for no reason - grab a tissue and ventilate my emotion. I do not have the luxury of time to continue crying - somehow I need to be thinking straight. I went back to the room and finished what I have started. The family decided to go outside and let me do my thing. Everything came back to me - from the time when I was doing a caregiver role and was doing his bedside cares till now that I got my registration and is a full-time nurse.
Late in my shift, my working partner managed to sit with him. He woke up and was drinking his favorite drink. Yra took the time to feed him and as I dropped by to check - he flashed that familiar smile - so full of life - his eyes so clear as if awaken from a very nice sleep. I called out his name and gave him an approving sign. He was awake and for a while I had the hope that he will recover and be well in the morning. All worries drained off my nerves. The bell started ringing and other patients need to be attended. I had to finished the charts and just when I was about to write Yra called back.
Gordon is not breathing. OH no ... how unfair !!! the SMILE - I did not realize it was a farewell. Yra and I were standing at each side of his bed... Yra said, how it hurts Ate ... I said... I know. He woke up just to smile to us. We shook our heads - nothing more we can do. He had to go and we must let him be. I rang his family and his doctor. With all tenderness, we washed him again, changed everything to clean ones and handed-over the incident to the next shift's staff. The SMILE: no more.
15 October, 2009
How to Find Your Soul Mate - Finding Your Soul Mate - True Love - Marie Claire
How to Find Your Soul Mate - Finding Your Soul Mate - True Love - Marie Claire: "How to find your Soul Mate rapidly and efficiently
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A guide from the TIDY centre. Almost everyone in this world seeks companionship or a soul mate. Even those who do not wish to have human relationships, seek to have spiritual relationships with their Gods and philosophies, in order to be consoled. In order to find your soul mate efficiently, you need to be totally truthful and honest with yourself first. Then you need to find out where you are on the Spiral of Life or Evolution. Please see a video at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abW5Gr7Ry7A to know all about the Spiral. According to the Law of the Spiral, you can either be an unrefined, valueless or a hypocritical person who does not care about anything and lives at the bottom of the spiral, or a semi refined person who is aware of what is right and wrong but prefers to live in the dark passively as a hypocrite, or a refined person who upholds truth and justice and is not a hypocrite. Do not be disturbed if you find that your level of refinement is low, as you are not alone. There are less than 2%, 100% honest and truthful persons in the world. You could also be a facilitator Angel in human form that was born to guide those who are untruthful and dishonest in the world, to evolve and refine themselves and move upwards on the spiral. The difference between human beings and facilitator Angels in human form, is that they are 100% honest and do not have the right to amass wealth and assets on earth and also engage in commitments such as marriages. However, they are permitted to have relationships with other facilitator Angels and refined persons who do not amass wealth and assets. Angels are unable to live with normal humans who amass wealth and assets, as their hearts are not oriented in that manner. As a result, Angels in human form have also been suffering for centuries of boredom, lack of companionship and not knowing how to select friends. They too need to identify who they are and place themselves on the Spiral before seeking a companion or friend. Many humans are unable to find their soul mates efficiently, as they are unable to identify where they are on the Spiral of Life – Evolution. Once you place yourself on the Spiral, you would need to seek others who are at the same level as you, to select a soul mate. If you try to have a relationship with someone at a different level on the spiral, (i.e. a relationship between an unrefined/valueless person with a refined person or a facilitator/Angel in human form etc.) the relationship will end up in disaster, divorce and much suffering, as you would be constantly clashing on the values and aspirations embedded in your hearts. Therefore the best matches for seeking soul mates for starting relationships are as follows: 1) Unrefined persons with other unrefined, valueless and hypocritical persons. 2) Semi-refined persons with other semi-refined persons. 3) Refined persons with refined persons 4) Refined persons who do not amass wealth and assets with facilitator Angels. Once you understand the above, it becomes easy to find your soul mate rapidly. You would need to portray your true self (i.e. Unrefined, semi-refined, refined or facilitator Angel) in public and the soul mates who match to your values will automatically be drawn to you, contact you or arrive at your door. If you are at a lower level on the spiral and wish to have a relationship with a human at a higher level or a facilitator/Angel, you would need to graduate rapidly to his/her level and completely adhere to his/her aspirations and values, as they rarely move downwards. Your approaches will also be rejected or relationships broken as soon as they find out your true level. On the other hand, if you are a refined being or a facilitator/Angel and wish to have an un-refined or semi-refined being as your soul mate, you would need to turn a blind eye to your values and conscience and live at his/her level. You may be able to guide him/her gradually to graduate to your level but it is a difficult task. If you choose to live at his/her level you will be struggling in life to maintain your balance. This is because living with an un-refined or semi-refined person is daunting, with constant need to accept hypocritical and dishonest thoughts and actions. This will require that you stop living meaningfully and joyfully. Now, who wants to struggle and live life in misery!! Therefore, it is better to adhere to the law of the spiral or evolution and live joyfully. It is not recommended that people live at the un-refined and semi-refined level for long as it is more challenging than living as a refined person. This is because you would need to constantly justify your hypocritical and dishonest thoughts and actions and may also be condemned and have to go to prison if you are prosecuted. If you are a facilitator Angel in human form and try to live a totally human life, your attempts will fail as you were not born to be a human. Thank you and wish you the best, Sunimal M. Alles The TIDY center www.tidycentre.com +256772009094"
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
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A guide from the TIDY centre. Almost everyone in this world seeks companionship or a soul mate. Even those who do not wish to have human relationships, seek to have spiritual relationships with their Gods and philosophies, in order to be consoled. In order to find your soul mate efficiently, you need to be totally truthful and honest with yourself first. Then you need to find out where you are on the Spiral of Life or Evolution. Please see a video at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abW5Gr7Ry7A to know all about the Spiral. According to the Law of the Spiral, you can either be an unrefined, valueless or a hypocritical person who does not care about anything and lives at the bottom of the spiral, or a semi refined person who is aware of what is right and wrong but prefers to live in the dark passively as a hypocrite, or a refined person who upholds truth and justice and is not a hypocrite. Do not be disturbed if you find that your level of refinement is low, as you are not alone. There are less than 2%, 100% honest and truthful persons in the world. You could also be a facilitator Angel in human form that was born to guide those who are untruthful and dishonest in the world, to evolve and refine themselves and move upwards on the spiral. The difference between human beings and facilitator Angels in human form, is that they are 100% honest and do not have the right to amass wealth and assets on earth and also engage in commitments such as marriages. However, they are permitted to have relationships with other facilitator Angels and refined persons who do not amass wealth and assets. Angels are unable to live with normal humans who amass wealth and assets, as their hearts are not oriented in that manner. As a result, Angels in human form have also been suffering for centuries of boredom, lack of companionship and not knowing how to select friends. They too need to identify who they are and place themselves on the Spiral before seeking a companion or friend. Many humans are unable to find their soul mates efficiently, as they are unable to identify where they are on the Spiral of Life – Evolution. Once you place yourself on the Spiral, you would need to seek others who are at the same level as you, to select a soul mate. If you try to have a relationship with someone at a different level on the spiral, (i.e. a relationship between an unrefined/valueless person with a refined person or a facilitator/Angel in human form etc.) the relationship will end up in disaster, divorce and much suffering, as you would be constantly clashing on the values and aspirations embedded in your hearts. Therefore the best matches for seeking soul mates for starting relationships are as follows: 1) Unrefined persons with other unrefined, valueless and hypocritical persons. 2) Semi-refined persons with other semi-refined persons. 3) Refined persons with refined persons 4) Refined persons who do not amass wealth and assets with facilitator Angels. Once you understand the above, it becomes easy to find your soul mate rapidly. You would need to portray your true self (i.e. Unrefined, semi-refined, refined or facilitator Angel) in public and the soul mates who match to your values will automatically be drawn to you, contact you or arrive at your door. If you are at a lower level on the spiral and wish to have a relationship with a human at a higher level or a facilitator/Angel, you would need to graduate rapidly to his/her level and completely adhere to his/her aspirations and values, as they rarely move downwards. Your approaches will also be rejected or relationships broken as soon as they find out your true level. On the other hand, if you are a refined being or a facilitator/Angel and wish to have an un-refined or semi-refined being as your soul mate, you would need to turn a blind eye to your values and conscience and live at his/her level. You may be able to guide him/her gradually to graduate to your level but it is a difficult task. If you choose to live at his/her level you will be struggling in life to maintain your balance. This is because living with an un-refined or semi-refined person is daunting, with constant need to accept hypocritical and dishonest thoughts and actions. This will require that you stop living meaningfully and joyfully. Now, who wants to struggle and live life in misery!! Therefore, it is better to adhere to the law of the spiral or evolution and live joyfully. It is not recommended that people live at the un-refined and semi-refined level for long as it is more challenging than living as a refined person. This is because you would need to constantly justify your hypocritical and dishonest thoughts and actions and may also be condemned and have to go to prison if you are prosecuted. If you are a facilitator Angel in human form and try to live a totally human life, your attempts will fail as you were not born to be a human. Thank you and wish you the best, Sunimal M. Alles The TIDY center www.tidycentre.com +256772009094"
10 October, 2009
8 Foods That Fight Fat on Yahoo! Health
8 Foods That Fight Fat on Yahoo! Health: "8 Foods That Fight Fat
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By Lucy Danziger, SELF Editor-in-Chief - Posted on Thu, Oct 08, 2009, 3:32 pm PDT
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Want to lose weight as you chow down? Your wish is granted! (I promise, this is no fairy tale.) Your supermarket is filled with foods that studies show have lipid-melting powers to help melt fat and keep you slim. Stock up on these fat-fighting super bites, and you'll be trimmer even as you indulge. Read on to discover the eight foods that deserve a permanent spot in your fridge—and in your diet!
Almonds These yummy nuts are high in alpha-linolenic acid, which can accelerate your metabolism of fats. In fact, dieters who ate 3 ounces of almonds daily slashed their weight and body-mass index by 18 percent, while those who skipped the nuts reduced both numbers less— just 11 percent—a study in the International Journal of Obesity revealed. Chomp almonds à la carte (limit yourself to 12 per serving to keep calories in check). I get a pack at Starbucks and nibble throughout my day. Or sprinkle them into a recipe such as Black Bean–Almond Pesto Chicken. Go nuts!
Berries I tell my daughter, 'These are nature's candy!' Turns out they're also your body's best friends. Strawberries, raspberries and other vitamin C–spiked fruit can supercharge your workout, helping you burn up to 30 percent more fat, research from Arizona State University at Mesa has found. If they're not in season, buy the little gems frozen in a bulk-sized bag so you'll always have them on hand to whip up a Berry Bliss Smoothie or Strawberry-Sunflower Pops, regardless of whether berries are in season.
Cinnamon Adding 1/4 teaspoon to your plate may prevent an insulin spike—an uptick that tells your body to store fat. Sprinkle it on your morning cereal or coffee or on your yogurt in the A.M., or savor it in Apple-Cinnamon-Raisin Oatmeal.
Mustard It's heaven on a soft pretzel, but mustard may also be a weight loss wonder. Turmeric, the spice that gives mustard its color, may slow the growth of fat tissues, a study in the journal Endocrinology finds. Use it on sandwiches instead of mayo, or sprinkle turmeric on cauliflower pre-roasting to give it a kick. Try it on tuna salad—I promise it adds zest.
Oranges This citrus fruit, which contains fat-blasting compounds known as flavones, deserves to be your main squeeze. Women who ate the most flavones had a much lower increase in body fat over a 14-year period, a study in The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition notes. Eat oranges sliced or swig fresh OJ (including pulp!) to get the best benefit from the fruit.
Soybeans Reason to toss a half cup on your salad? Soybeans are rich in choline, a compound that blocks the absorption of fat and breaks down fatty deposits. Oh, and they're addictively delish! But if breast cancer runs in your family, experts suggest you should talk to your doc before adding soy to your diet.
Sweet potatoes The colorful spuds' high-fiber content means they keep your insulin steadier than their white sisters, which means less fat packed on your hips, research finds. Top a small baked tater with lowfat cottage cheese for a tempting side dish, or whip up Miso Soup With Sweet Potato Dumplings.
Swiss cheese Calcium-rich foods reduce fat-producing enzymes and increase fat breakdown, and Swiss has more calcium than many of its cheesy peers. Choose the reduced-fat variety, such as Sargento. Slip it into your sandwich, put it on top of high-fiber crackers or use it for a healthier grilled cheese. Yum!"
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By Lucy Danziger, SELF Editor-in-Chief - Posted on Thu, Oct 08, 2009, 3:32 pm PDT
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by Lucy Danziger, SELF Editor-in-Chief a Yahoo! Health Expert for Women's Health
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Want to lose weight as you chow down? Your wish is granted! (I promise, this is no fairy tale.) Your supermarket is filled with foods that studies show have lipid-melting powers to help melt fat and keep you slim. Stock up on these fat-fighting super bites, and you'll be trimmer even as you indulge. Read on to discover the eight foods that deserve a permanent spot in your fridge—and in your diet!
Almonds These yummy nuts are high in alpha-linolenic acid, which can accelerate your metabolism of fats. In fact, dieters who ate 3 ounces of almonds daily slashed their weight and body-mass index by 18 percent, while those who skipped the nuts reduced both numbers less— just 11 percent—a study in the International Journal of Obesity revealed. Chomp almonds à la carte (limit yourself to 12 per serving to keep calories in check). I get a pack at Starbucks and nibble throughout my day. Or sprinkle them into a recipe such as Black Bean–Almond Pesto Chicken. Go nuts!
Berries I tell my daughter, 'These are nature's candy!' Turns out they're also your body's best friends. Strawberries, raspberries and other vitamin C–spiked fruit can supercharge your workout, helping you burn up to 30 percent more fat, research from Arizona State University at Mesa has found. If they're not in season, buy the little gems frozen in a bulk-sized bag so you'll always have them on hand to whip up a Berry Bliss Smoothie or Strawberry-Sunflower Pops, regardless of whether berries are in season.
Cinnamon Adding 1/4 teaspoon to your plate may prevent an insulin spike—an uptick that tells your body to store fat. Sprinkle it on your morning cereal or coffee or on your yogurt in the A.M., or savor it in Apple-Cinnamon-Raisin Oatmeal.
Mustard It's heaven on a soft pretzel, but mustard may also be a weight loss wonder. Turmeric, the spice that gives mustard its color, may slow the growth of fat tissues, a study in the journal Endocrinology finds. Use it on sandwiches instead of mayo, or sprinkle turmeric on cauliflower pre-roasting to give it a kick. Try it on tuna salad—I promise it adds zest.
Oranges This citrus fruit, which contains fat-blasting compounds known as flavones, deserves to be your main squeeze. Women who ate the most flavones had a much lower increase in body fat over a 14-year period, a study in The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition notes. Eat oranges sliced or swig fresh OJ (including pulp!) to get the best benefit from the fruit.
Soybeans Reason to toss a half cup on your salad? Soybeans are rich in choline, a compound that blocks the absorption of fat and breaks down fatty deposits. Oh, and they're addictively delish! But if breast cancer runs in your family, experts suggest you should talk to your doc before adding soy to your diet.
Sweet potatoes The colorful spuds' high-fiber content means they keep your insulin steadier than their white sisters, which means less fat packed on your hips, research finds. Top a small baked tater with lowfat cottage cheese for a tempting side dish, or whip up Miso Soup With Sweet Potato Dumplings.
Swiss cheese Calcium-rich foods reduce fat-producing enzymes and increase fat breakdown, and Swiss has more calcium than many of its cheesy peers. Choose the reduced-fat variety, such as Sargento. Slip it into your sandwich, put it on top of high-fiber crackers or use it for a healthier grilled cheese. Yum!"
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