It is fun and can be challenging at times. For everything that there is in the game you just need a keen sense of humor and a strong will and heart to resist. At the end of the day, remember it is all a game that players play and you decided to play it as well.
It dates back to who knows when ... men pursuing women and vice-versa ... people touching each others emotions, sometimes pushing the other to insanity and tears ... romantic dramas ... heart rendering and annoying at times but as always time heals and again it is all a game that people play and which you entered as well.
I was busy working on my power point presentation for the lecture that I was to give on one of the trainings that the office had to conduct. Sitting long hours on the computer, waiting for some downloads to enhance the presentation makes it boring. My office mate came up and told me about a music sharing site. After work we explored the room together and there we were, joking, playing, laughing and enjoying with the keyboard.
She shared her tunes, chat with the rest in there and there I was interacting and responding to every joke that came my way. Not long came the personal messages, the flirting and the the flattery. It was different with individuals in person, where and when you can look straight into the eyes, or see the dirt embedded on your chat-mates fingernail beds, or as the song goes " guilty feet losing its rhythm" or a quivering voice and the awkward smiles of a lying mouth.
Cyberspace gives the players a chance to pretend and even believe it is true. I have always mistrust the net but we are all in this state of technology and what can we do but just find our best path into such world. Acquaintances hiding in aliases grew in the list. Some most eager to speak about themselves, some sounding shy and humble , some funny, some loud ... but I could not be bothered.
Then my computer accumulated all sorts of virus and I started complaining to a friend. She took one of her internet admirers to fix it for me and there goes the skirt chasing. Obviously I wore the skirt. The premise was he was a poor patient and faithful husband living with a cheating, inconsiderate wife hopefully waiting for a worthy lady to grab by her side ... hihihi ... what about that ? ( shall i say more?)
Another one was not actually a cyber-guy. He was introduced by a friend who was going out with him and we just picked it up in the internet. He readily went loose with his perversion which for the first time in my " frog's life" I felt like cold water was thrown right on my face. With that, a friend and I parted ways when out of her own mental thrill perhaps she carry on with his pervert acts under my account. I decided to meet the guy in person who was just as he is ... raw and outright, who played the game without barely a blink in the eye, totally without inhibition.
More and more and more they came ... As I come to think about it ... I realize that I am actually just bored and wasting my time. It feels like sitting in a bar, gulping wine and blowing smoke just to pass the boredom, or maybe even dancing with a wild, untamed creature at a dance floor ... ( things I never do ) but as I have said ... it can be fun and challenging when you just have to keep your wits and stay in control as you are manipulated, pushed, shaken or even winded up. It is some kind of a mental and maybe emotional calisthenics dealing with all sorts of psychological void expressed by personalities of different types and staying safe and sound at the end. I probably would be too scared to be with a maniac in person.
A friend though has a good story to tell. She is happily and fruitfully married to a cyber friend and I wish the best for the rest. The game after all is called BOREDOM and the rule is simple ... " KNOW THYSELF ".
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