Some People Are

Some people are simply endowed with a gracious spirit, they are those who set on their face a light and joyful glow. Their hearts know no envy, they feel real happiness for the opportunities and successes of others. They speak no evil against their neighbours yet can be honest with tact. In the dog eat dog competitive world they may get hurt but they are slow to anger and so fast they forgive. They make other people comfortable.

Some people are never hard to tell … they may be nice or they may be rude … whatever their true colour …it is pretty obvious and clear … they do not hide their feelings, never afraid of what it brings … take it or leave it that is what they are and that is how they should be accepted.

Another group of people are those that seem nice but clever . They trap you with goodwill but destroy you when they get a chance. They are those who in childhood could have been deprived … now as adult they seek vengeance. They make friends with the goal to ensure that they are kept just within their level, an inch ahead, they will pull you back with gossips and intrigues. They are the kind you are scared to meet.

One of the worst group are those who are hard to educate … they have accumulated years to their age but had never gained maturity in character. They are the ones with all their rough edges unpolished … they blurt out uncensored words … at a glance you would mistake them for just being real yet in the long run you would realize they might as well have kept their mouth shut…they merely say things to weaken your strength instead.

The most dangerous are those that look religious and demure … they speak with finesse … they seem refine and soft. They are the ones that you would never expect could break a plate ,the ones you would rely could never cause any trouble … as they would appear most honourable yet in them is an eye of envy … rivalry is their game and they murder your name just the same.

Some are best in times of need, they can talk of a million promises if just to convince you they are true. They may sound a hundred percent certain even prostitute themselves to be convincing, and set the picture of sincerity in their eyes for you to see. But might as well pray you do not see them when they get your favour they will surely change to a different colour .

Some are noisy as they can be…with every chance they tell their own stories … the louder they shout the more is their need to be heard … be it in action or in words you can see and hear that strong gush of air from their guts… they are in the world as non-achiever or even see them high in their profession but they are actually victims of depression begging to fill the emptiness and loneliness within them.

Some of us believe that fame is all that there is in this world … everywhere they may be , they aim for attention as madly as they can be … some do believe the action of life is always at the centre of the stage, they put a mask on their faces set on a bloated head. They sing and dance, they laugh and cry , they put their hands on anything in public … measuring success with each applause … yet they end a day looking funny; hungry and tired without someone by their side.

Usually missed on the list are those contented and at peace…they do stay quiet … and does not mind how crazy the world can get. They enjoy life listening to their own stories and those that remained near enough to be as close. In wisdom they accepted their weaknesses and limitations yet mastered their own strength. If invited they may watch other people’s show but leaves with understanding and without judgement, they are the ones that make the world grow

WHEN TOMORROW COMES

Written: June , 2007 Location: Timaru, Canterbury,NZ (2umyfriend)...friendship can stir a bond so strong that letting go may become so hard to do ... life was never meant to be spent alone ... yet the fact remains that we have our own lives to live ... most of the time we come to realize that nothing on this earth can be so good to last forever ...not even the love we feel to be the strongest for the moment ... if i can have my way ... i simply want to be happy ... to treasure every moment of friendship ... nurture it with respect and cares ... to love without fear ...to savour the moment as long as it lasts and when the day comes that one has to let go... live with what is left and graciously moved on ... i know you promised you will never leave me despite the possible complexities of our future lives but sometimes words are easier said than done ... goodluck! When tomorrow comes and you are gone I will remember no more of anything that we’ve been through Not because I cared less, nor regret the times I had with you But because losing would be too much; It is unfair to punish myself for love. When tomorrow comes And you will somehow be happy with someone else I will keep moving on, run miles and fly high Not possibly because I am happy as you are But I am to conquer my limits and convince myself I can When tomorrow comes and this time is past I know I will be as an empty shell But I need to live even with nothing For loving you i gave all and took none So loneliness is just at hand. When tomorrow finally comes The tears will ease the burden of hurt A smile may come to disguise the wounds in the heart For by then, I will be out of place in your life Guess it was not meant...even from the start..

How About Meeting A Dog

Dogs will never let you down, they are honest and faithful, they put others first but often worry too much. People born in the Year of the Dog possess the best traits of human nature. They have a deep sense of loyalty and inspire other people's confidence because they know how to keep secrets. But Dog People are somewhat selfish, terribly stubborn, and eccentric. They care little for wealth, yet somehow always seem to have money. They can be cold emotionally and sometimes distant at parties. They can find fault with many things and are noted for their sharp tongues. Dog people make good leaders. They are compatible with those born in the Years of the Horse, Tiger, and Rabbit.They are most compatible with Snake, Rooster, and Rat people. Positive Traits: attentive, well meaning, helpful, warm-hearted, altruistic, modest, devoted, philosophical, dutiful, discreet, intelligent and enthusiastic Negative Traits:nasty, mean-spirited, disagreeable, bad-tempered, quarrelsome, accusing, nervous, anxious and (impossible to live with ... when push to the limits) General Description of All Dogs: Dogs can be a bit overwhelming, due in part to their attentive natures. They can march in and take control of a situation, even when it doesn't involve them directly. This can lead people to think Dogs are nosy or gossipy, but in reality, he just means well. Money and status don't matter to the Dog. He is more concerned with the welfare of his family and friends and will do whatever it takes to help them out of a tight squeeze or a rough spot. Once Dogs determine a subject of interest, they usually master that before taking off for a new adventure. They like to finish what they start. They are honest and trustworthy people, ethically strong and morally kept. They make loyal friends and companions. The Earth Dog: The earth Dog is clever and genuine. He is rational and supportive, stable and stoic. Earth gives this Dog an element of security, for he is inspiring and confident. These characters are just, certain to hear both sides before making a decision. He makes a great leader because he is such a trustworthy, diplomatic individual. The Piscean Dog: These Dogs are calm, relaxed individuals who need a relaxing environment. They make excellent caregivers and stable providers for their families. Dogs can be overly shy when making friends. If they are interested, they want to make certain you are as well before expressing any interest. They are emotionally sensitive people, who don't take wounds to the heart very easily. As a lover, Dogs are compassionate, supportive partners, eager to hear about your day at work or the project you just finished. They share the highs and lows of being in love, defending their partners to anyone who attacks them. Dogs always put their family first. They are wonderfully supportive parents who take great pride in the happiness and well-being of their children. They are selfless parents, content to wear the same old clothes so their children may have the stylish new ones. These parents make terrific, stoic role models for their children and keep close bonds with their offspring well after they've grown up. The Dog as a Child: Dog children are creative, able to entertain themselves for hours on end. They don't mind playing by themselves, often inventing games and puzzles while doing so. They are responsible children who love to take on and complete as many tasks as possible for it gives them a sense of accomplishment. The Dog as a Friend: Dogs are so easy to get along with and generally have a ton of friends. They are supportive and calming and make exceptional friends. They don't hold grudges or bear any bad feelings towards anyone who has treated them respectfully and justly. Dogs are excellent listeners, offering an ear to anyone in need. They are held in high regard by their friends and are loyal, honest friends. The Dog at Home: Dogs like clean residences. Not only straightened-up, but also deep cleaned. Changed sheets, washed clothes, dusted blinds and wiped down mirrors are only a few of the Dogs weekly chores. His home must be well-organized and easy to navigate all of the time. Dogs want to be comfortable and take luxury in overstuffed pillows, big, cushy couches and oversized recliners. Although they are open-minded, Dogs prefer to stick with traditional d cor when decorating a room. The Dog on Vacation: These people are people watchers. They are content watching different people walk by, listening to their conversations, watching their reactions. Dogs would enjoy a vacation with the entire family more than a romantic getaway. In this situation, Dogs are sure to make everyone happy by incorporating everybody's tastes and ideas into each thing they do together. Dogs are resourceful and eager to help out at work. Dogs will take on more work if it means less work for their peers. They enjoy learning new skills and as a result are cherished employees. A Dog's just and fair nature comes in handy when in positions of leadership where decisions have to be made. Well Suited Dog Occupations:Nurses, Interior decorators, Counselors, Clerks, Psychiatrists.

The Mathematics of Vanity

The majesty of its structure lingered in my thoughts. The big two-story house on top of the slope. It was located by the corner of the road. Massive windows open to the site of the bay down the opposite of a major highway.  The view of the hill was further. An awesome scene I should say, the house haunted my memories with the nostalgia of my childhood.

Time flew so fast, once our family used to sail towards the white sandy part of the bay in a bamboo raft. We did enjoy a swim. Time was when lark hovered swiftly over the coconut trees by day. Fireflies lighted the mangroves at night. Those things fascinated me in childhood.  They are all gone now. Soon I will leave the place too, how long I do not know.

If I can have my way, I would rather stay in the comfort and familiarity of my childhood hometown.  I am a big girl now. I have responsibilities and obligations at hand. I need to do my role in this drama of survival or face failure in my lifetime. 

What lies ahead is not certain but that house tells a story. The house was owned by my music teacher back in my primary years. The family migrated to the United States for a better life. I supposed by now, her children are all grown up and married with families of their own. That huge house says what the couple can now afford. 

I asked, who lives in that house? There is nobody I was told. A caretaker simply comes in regularly to clean its interior. I do not believe so much about unseen creatures but different versions of weird phenomena the neighbours talk about. The house has been deserted and they say it is haunted. I come to think about my teacher. She must be a couple of decades over my age. I know it is none of my business but maybe her knees must be a little sore by now. I wonder, will that magnificent staircase be not too much for my mentor to take? Then again, she does not live in that house she built. 

My cousin in Canada shared some of the good things that happened to some of our friends in that part of the world. She said a close friend invited her to their home one day. The friend showed off the huge screen and high-tech gadgets in each room of their home. Definitely nothing wrong with that, but the poor rich friend could hardly enjoy the sophistication of his abode. He works sixteen hours a day to raise the money to pay the loan. He hardly rests and badly needed some sleep. Our friend is too tired to switch any of the buttons of his entertainment set.

Once, I stared blankly at the passport on the dashboard of my car. My visa was ready. Soon I will go. Similarly, I am going out of the country for the money. I am a mother, tears rolled down my face. I called out to pray, oh Father in Heaven, I know nothing in this world is free. I am leaving the safety of my daughter for her future. If leading her astray is the bargain I must make I am not going anywhere.

I missed driving down that road. I missed the broom-broom of the engine as I slowed down my speed cruising down that slope. I am not blasting the music of the car radio if just to forget the stress. Now I am in some distant and foreign land. 

Several times, I catch up with my own people. We tend to group together for camaraderie. In these socials, culture and identity are manifested. Sometimes vanity glaringly comes into play. We do work hard and with all our sincere efforts tend to build and display things for fame, honour and recognition. Yet if our vanity is consuming our freedom and peace the mathematics of it all would simply be an equation of nullity.